Chapter 18
I gave this good news to Adarsh on phone and told him I needed to stay with Aaru for three-four days until she is discharged. He told me his Aayi-baba were coming the next day for a week to stay with them and it will be a little inappropriate if I wasn’t home when they come. He also said no pressure though but with each passing day, the sadness in his voice was only increasing.
I thought he understood my feelings for Aaru and Shamit but I myself barely understood my own feelings for him. I had gradually started developing certain feelings for him but was not sure if it was love. Soon, I got busy taking care of our little princess and Aaru. Aaru’s parents arrived too and were so elated to see the little one.
The next morn I got up realizing there was someone waiting for me at home. For the first time, I kept his wishes above my love for Aaradhya and Shamit and reached home before Aayi-Baba arrived. I was changing.
I spent the next seven days with my family which was blissfully comforting. For the first time I genuinely also spent quality time with Adarsh.
One night when we were sitting in the garden outside our bungalow, Adarsh had expressed his fear that our marriage might crumble soon because I was not invested in it.
“Think about it! You are a great person, all you lack is, balance in your life. At some point, you have to leave Shamit and Aaru alone. They are happy in their world! It’s time for us to weave our world now and if you love babies, let’s have our own.”
He told me and I nodded agreeably.
Adarsh was actually a very confident guy but since he spoke very less I could never gauge his feelings. But whenever I spoke of Shamit and Aaru he turned visibly uncomfortable. Since I had no other topic to talk about it was a silence that mostly filled the space between us.
Aayi-baba left the next day expressing a desire to play with their grandson or granddaughter soon. After they left I rushed to check on how the two, sorry three, most important people of my life were doing and was happy to see all was perfect in their world.
I shared with Aaru and Shamit how we too were planning to start a family and their joy doubled. In that innocent moment, I also confided in them my secret desire to live with them forever to which they laughed out loud, saying I am most welcome any time but what would happen to poor Adarsh.
Adarsh who had come to pick me up had overheard the entire conversation and had remained silent.
Time passed and gradually I warmed up to Adarsh and we expected our first baby who would arrive soon. Together we were setting a room for our baby in the most beautiful corner of our home and life felt like a dream.
While we eagerly waited for him or her, Aaru and Shamit were enjoying parenthood with little Sharadhya who was growing more playful each day. She had just started walking and would wobble excitedly into my arms whenever I went to meet her. She was truly adorable and cute and always brought back fond memories of my tiny Aaru.
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