There are many battles I talk to you about everyday
But there are several others I still am not comfortable opening up
I try to avoid those subjects even when talking to self
I just quietly meditate about them praying to my lord
Meditating my fears and pain away
Has helped me in the toughest times
When things are really adverse and I feel I won’t survive
I just focus and repeat my prayers aloud closing my eyes
It at least leaves no space for doubt
As my brain is totally occupied
I hear my heart beating faster
This too shall pass to it I repeatedly utter
I also try to smile as wide as river Nile
Cracking a useless joke trying to cover up things by underplaying my pain
It does help me cope up many a times
And also keeps my family floating
Talking of them, yes they are my first priority
I don’t want my sickness hamper their happiness
But honestly no matter how hard I try
Some days without their support I cannot sail
Rest of the days I double up their joys
Trying really hard to add fruitful moments
Staying strong as much as I can
Life is a gamble I some day wish to win
Thus each day I send this prayer to the universe
That it must conspire to make me perfectly fit
I trust God is kind and my prayers shall be answered
Until then I shall meditate my fear and pain away
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