Monday 11 April 2022

Just one last wish: Dear Universe, I want to live!

I am destiny’s chosen child 

In good or bad, fortunately or unfortunately 

I have always remained her favourite

In life’s suspenseful turmoil 

I have obeyed her all my life 

But today is I guess my turn 

As her chosen one 

To ask for something in return

Dear Destiny, you have tested me enough 

From childhood till now 

Now pls let me live 

For some time in peace and pain free

Yesterday,  as I lay in the MRI machine 

The severely claustrophobic me felt her heart stopping 

I prayed and meditated and meditated and prayed 

My pain and fear made it worse 

I felt so vulnerable 

They told me there were signs 

That there might be a major organ removal surgery 

For which I don’t feel ready 

Surgery after surgery 

My threshold to bear the pain has gone for a toss 

Now my heart shatters at the slightest thought  

Of undergoing it one more time 

They say endometriosis has no cure

I even altered my lifestyle and lost forty pounds 

But it never really stopped 

Torturing me and making me weak in my mental resolve 

It is 8:30 am and I am again headed to the hospital 

For more tests they say they wish to perform 

Then my gynaecologist shall make a call

And break my heart 

I really wish to live 

For myself, my family 

My kid most of all

Who still needs me more than any one else

Pray for me my loves 

As miracles do happen 

I have had enough in this birth 

Now want to live happy and calm 

They say give out to the universe 

Your prayer aloud most sincerely 

And it shall conspire to grant your wish 

Dear Universe, I want to live!

Hi everyone, thanks for dropping by, this is my seventh consecutive #BlogchatterA2Z as well as global #AtoZchallenge, and this year I am penning raw pure uncensored emotions weaved as poetry. I will so look forward to your feedback, please do let me know how are you finding it, in all earnestly. In case you wish to check out what I wrote in the previous 5 challenges here are the links for 201620172018 20192020, and 2021

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