I am destiny’s chosen child
In good or bad, fortunately or unfortunately
I have always remained her favourite
In life’s suspenseful turmoil
I have obeyed her all my life
But today is I guess my turn
As her chosen one
To ask for something in return
Dear Destiny, you have tested me enough
From childhood till now
Now pls let me live
For some time in peace and pain free
Yesterday, as I lay in the MRI machine
The severely claustrophobic me felt her heart stopping
I prayed and meditated and meditated and prayed
My pain and fear made it worse
I felt so vulnerable
They told me there were signs
That there might be a major organ removal surgery
For which I don’t feel ready
Surgery after surgery
My threshold to bear the pain has gone for a toss
Now my heart shatters at the slightest thought
Of undergoing it one more time
They say endometriosis has no cure
I even altered my lifestyle and lost forty pounds
But it never really stopped
Torturing me and making me weak in my mental resolve
It is 8:30 am and I am again headed to the hospital
For more tests they say they wish to perform
Then my gynaecologist shall make a call
And break my heart
I really wish to live
For myself, my family
My kid most of all
Who still needs me more than any one else
Pray for me my loves
As miracles do happen
I have had enough in this birth
Now want to live happy and calm
They say give out to the universe
Your prayer aloud most sincerely
And it shall conspire to grant your wish
Dear Universe, I want to live!
Hi everyone, thanks for dropping by, this is my seventh consecutive #BlogchatterA2Z as well as global #AtoZchallenge, and this year I am penning raw pure uncensored emotions weaved as poetry. I will so look forward to your feedback, please do let me know how are you finding it, in all earnestly. In case you wish to check out what I wrote in the previous 5 challenges here are the links for 2016, 2017, 2018 2019, 2020, and 2021.
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