2026 has otherwise been good to me other than my health. I released a new anthology-my passion project-Brave Inked Emotions Vol2 on Women’s Day with 36 co-authors which can be your priceless companion in times when you feel emotionally low. These are real stories of Indians women and men who have hit their lowest and yet shown unparalleled grit to turn the tide of time in their favour. The book had a dream launch in the heart of the capital city of india at Lazeez Affaire. I am glad I already have had a high in the year to cheer me up during the low.
Sorry for digressing from the topic, so I had danced into the new year cheerfully but thereafter my endometriosis and adenomyosis started acting very difficult, painful and bleedy. At first I thought I will bear it somehow like in 2025 and the second half of 2024 when I had to discontinue ayurveda but no I could not bear the frequent debilitating pain and excessive bleeding episodes coming so frequently.
In panic I consulted a flurry of doctors in Delhi but their lack or empathy appalled me and honestly I cannot comment on their professional prowess because for someone having life altering pain the first they need are your kind words. Well, the junior doctors wrote all possible tests for me because the senior ones I wanted to discuss my status showed up only for a few seconds. Some reports turned out scary and I held on to hope trying to release the anthology to keep my promise to my co-authors some of whom were debuting and it was to be a dream come true to them.
This was all happening between my kid’s 11th Grade AS levels board exams and so I sucked up my pain and decided to go back to my Gynac in Pune who has always been a motherly figure and a compassionate soul. I felt directionless so I also wanted to go to my Baba in Shirdi to show me the way forward and before that I flew to Pune to get myself examined by my doctor who was scared to see my condition. She put me on medication immediately which would prepare me for a surgery around June in Pune. She said she will have to rope in several doctors as this will be a multiorgan complex surgery but sounded so scared herself.
Though I have my home in Pune, our nephews live there, having no solutions and only a heavy heart I reached Shirdi. My son was soon starting 12th and the only break he got was lost in mom’s treatment and MRIs and diagnosis, I felt hurt and guilty for my husband too who has emergencies at his work yet both my boys tried.
In Shirdi I just let the universe absorb my physical and mental agony. I can’t explain the connect I experience with Baba and Shirdi, as soon as I stepped in, I surrendered to Him. I told him to show me the way forward and how I must go about it with no support system and everything being so critical. I am nearing the date but have no solution yet but I trust my Baba and that everything will work out perfectly under his blessings. He will do the miracle I await.
Everything in Shirdi was pure and divine and little magical things kept happening as I strolled through the streets and temple in the Maayka. From Shirdi I went to Mumbai but my pain has messed up with my mental health so much that I had to cancel my meetings there and though I had a chance to have my book launch and meet and greet in Pune and Mumbai but I could not. I wish everything happened as we wished.
Today I wait for the miracle and I trust the universe and baba that I will defeat endometriosis and adenomyosis after almost 2 decades of battling them like a soldier. Since you all my family, my heart, I have to share my side of the story till today will all of you. Do keep me in your prayers and forgive me if I have not responded to you the way you have desired. Have really been through a lot still try to smile as much as I can.
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